letter to my 1st love :)

How hard is leaving the one you love?
How difficult can it be?
It is almost killing, actually I don't know why do I still breathing
If you are not by my side anymore
Is it the end? Is it gonna be forever?
Why is it so difficult? Why does it affects me so much?
Just because you are my first love
& you will always be the first, my love
Hopre you never hate me, because I love you like I've never loved anyone else
& I still dream about you everynight
But then you become into someone I didn't recognize, in a person who I've never met before
You've said terrible things... things I've never thought you'd said just to hurting me
words that easily and slowly kill my heart
My heart that is all yours, my heart that loves you with every little piece, with every little vein
You've never said anything...
Is it that I've never made you feel something?
But the main problem is not that you can't, the problem is that you don't want
and the worst is that I want you so badly
I do really want you in my life
but it seems that you wanna be far away from me
Maybe I've should understand it, the fact that you didn't want to be by my side
maybe that was the biggest mistake
Cuz once you told me that you didn't wanna be with me anymore
I've should understand it, and never make you get beside me

I swear I've never loved someone like I love you now
and maybe this means that I could never forget you

Could you say everything will be alright?
Cuz you are the only one I could believe that...

Just because you are the one
My only one...